What is wrong with me! Every bloody time.
So i doubt im the only person in the world who is in this continuous evil circle of disaster dates, but when do you decide to nail it on the head and give up?
When i was 16 i got a bit of a reputation for being easy, i liked going out and meeting new people, and then the next night i would go out and meet another new people =)
it wasnt that i was easy, the thing with me is that i have always been looking for someone who would like me as much as i liked them, unfortunately i was always to stupid to see when someone was just pretending so that they could bed me ;(
Everytime i held out hope that this was the one, well here i am, 8 years later and i still fall for the same old lines, the same old tricks. As recent as last week i met this real great person, they were smoothe talking great looking, and genuinely seemed to like me, so i took up the offer of staying for a long weekend to get to know each other better. thing is that they know parts of me a whole lot better than the rest of me!
I had a few sms on my way back home, sayin they missed me already, which was actually a first, i was feeling great but something was niggling away at me, anyway, i was replying like you do, and then the sms became less frequent, no replies to alot of them, same old same old.
Well i knew the next sms i got would be when they were drunk and horny, and i was right on target. So yet again im here feeling like a twat, wishing i could get out of this circle, are some of us just here to be tricked in to bed?
And the most stupid thing is, here i am writing about what is plain to see, yet i cant help but fall for it everytime. It cant be my looks as im rated highly by many in catergory, including myself, and im actually really sweet, so why is it that people dont want more from me? at least i use one type of protection, shame they cant make the same for the heart.
Well, i am not falling for it anymore, i will not get laid again unless im sure that something will come of it (well, unless i need a quickie) i guess everyone has to know when enough is enough and to take control of the reins.
So heres till tomorrow when i go falling for it all over again.
Cheers
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